Part time sitter

Hello!

Theses kids are constantly amazing me. I love them so so so so much???

It never occurred to me that my 4 and 8 year old nephew and niece would know the existence of word selfie. When Charis said "Aunty shan, can we talk selfies?" It took me a few seconds to realise that a 8 year old was asking me to selfies with them. Me. Where did she learn that from, she doesn't even own a phone.  I am curious as to what the next generation of teenagers would do as technology just keeps advancing. 

Cutie <3

Let it be known that I am the best aunty on earth (self praises) because I let them watch more shows on youtube than their parents would ever allow them to. After all what are aunts for. 

I still can't over it. Also, when they searched for videos on youtube that I've actually never watched before. It hits me that my youth is fading. Can I remain18 forever. I don't want to move pass the 20th mark just about yet.

Never the less I thank God for my old soul friends. 

Who else would go to thrift stores with me as well as listen to all the stories I have to tell over tea? 

I've never met such like minded people, it's amazing. 

Right now I can only cherish and never stop Thanking God for these 2 amazing people in my life. 

xoxo Shan. 

back from the grave

If anything, I'm glad I survived 2 weeks of daily practical and theory exams. If this were to go on for more than those 14 days of purgatory, I would emerge as a eye bag warrior. yes, I like to think of myself like a war hero. 

In other news, I am extremely excited for 2nd trip to Hong Kong in the year and 4th Hong Kong trip in total. I don't exactly know what keeps brining me back time after time, but the alluring sights and sounds of that vibrant city never ceases to amaze me. As strange as this might sound, being surrounded by the beautiful cantonese language and the delectable cantonese food reminds me of my maternal grandmother who passed on the last day of the year 2012.

3 more papers in the span of the next two weeks and I'll be able to claim my freedom. Hurrah! 

John Green and henry in a video warms my heart. It's like a heart hug. I love it. so feel free to watch it, it's good for the soul. 

forsaken.

Haven't blogged in a very long time and I figured since the term break is here, I should post something.
And in the time that I have forsaken my blog, I have hurt my knee twice, visited Hong Kong and started school on a new campus.

I'm not going to lie, starting school on a clean slate has got me very excited however the constant anxiety of wether I'll find new good friends and get to the correct location on campus on time drove me absolutely insane. Campus is so big that I need to constantly use a map of the campus off the internet to avoid getting lost. But in all the troubles and worries, I am thankful for my close friends from secondary school who I'm still in contact with 7 weeks into the new school term because honestly, I wouldn't be able to survive. It's not like they sent a helicopter and lifted me out of the locations where I got lost in, it's just that knowing that you still have people to talk to and laugh with and confide in pulled me through the slight culture shock. Nonetheless I am enjoying school. Being freed from the torture of waking up at 6am and helicopter teachers has granted me energy to keep awake as well as the independent studying that I've always longed for.

Studying the tiny little microorganisms had me marvelling at God's intricate designs and also extremely paranoid now that I know the tiny little things that exist on my palms. The other day I walked passed a foot massage shop and couldn't help but cringe. It was the sight of people paying other people to smear and transfer all that microorganisms from their hands which would later feast on what ever nutrients their feet can provide. ugh. Like that say knowledge is power, more like the power become increasing disgusted.

This week, I've been researching on BOTOX and Breastfeeding for my school project. I feel that need to tell the word especially the police so if I were to get shot dead (TOUCH WOOD AH) <-- hey getting down with the lingo there *smirk* they wouldn't think I'm some superficial bimbo considering having a perky face and getting pregnant. No way. Although I do look forward to explain the boob and the cross section of the boob and how it produces milk in class. The inner paedo has always had this dream. hehhehehe heheheheh hehehheehhe.

Lately, I've been into listening to Sarah Bareilles' music because she's one of those artist who writes heart felt lyrics and not SEX SEX SEX SEX which I honestly find revolting. I can't wait for Sara Bareilles' new album :)

Tourist

          In some point in time I knew I had to visit the 10 gates of 'hell' some day, and that is today.
               Although I live next to it, I've never went in. Particularly since the place scared me.

       HAHAHAHAHHA and if you're wondering what I mean by hell, I mean Haw Par Villa.
       (Bianca and Yuan Jia)

Haw Par villa is a sculpture filled place that depicts the hells in which ancient Chinese believe in. I think so, not entirely sure. Apparently, this place use to be rather popular until what I believe was education and globalization that opened the minds of the younger generation who chose their own believes and saw this place as something insignificant; Therefore this place lost it's popularity and eventually became a run down free for all tourist attraction.

Classic tourist shot.

Given that none of us has ever set foot into this place, Yuan Jia, Bianca and I decided to explore the place, dressed like tourist. I think Yuan Jia wins the Best Dressed Tourist prize, she looks like she's from taiwan.  

ARTY. MOMENT

Is this 77 worthy?

Mimicking tourist mannerism

For some reason, a miniature statue of liberty was found present. peculiar.
Does this look like we were actually in New York City?

Gorgeous beings 

We poped by Clementi Library, before dropping by B's house.  IG CODE ALERT. Then, we went to Jurong library where we found a field and borrowed books. B borrowed 9 books. Clearly an library book hoarder of some sort. We also got KOI and were extremely disturbed by a song playing in the back ground that repeatedly sang
" I'M GOING TO F*** YOU"
I guess, we're not used to profanities being used so freely...  I'm pretty sure that's a good thing 

SWOOSHH

SWISHHH

                                                         

SUSHHHH

Run like the wind.

xoxo Shan

Safekeeping

 I've been gone for a while, alright, a long time but I have reasons for doing so. Possibly.

O'level results come out last Thursday(10 jan 2013).  Although the results were a pleasant surprise and a personal achievement, it wasn't good enough. That according to the overachieving nation of Singaporeans who measures a person's brilliance based on nothing but the academic success on a single examination. 

Then came the stress of having to choose between going to a Junior College or a Polytechnic. The controversial views and ignorant remarks that people sprout made me extremely confused. I know that education will bring anyone far because it brings along the reward of a good pay and even a comfortable life, but is there all that there is to it? The remarks game me the impression that those who were incapable of achieving stellar grades on this island deserve to be thrown into a bottomless pit that burnt for an eternity. Harsh.

*sigh* my friends and I are all going separate ways. As much as I would love to continue spending a part of my day to day life with them, the separation is inevitable. Although we all have a passion to pursue different things, it amazes me how much we all still have in common to laugh as well as to talk about. Safekeeping of the memories forged in a box would be ideal. 

Also lately due to the ample time I have on my hands, I have been channel surfing and most often end up watching really old animes that I use to watch 6 years ago. As I recall the animation used to be the most flawless masterpiece that I have ever set my eyes upon, but now the animation just seems flawed and sketchy. Much like the iphone 3Gs which I use to perceive as the most beautiful piece of technology I have ever laid my hands on, after I started using the 4Gs, 3Gs just seems like a complete miss fire at perfection. My point is, the present situation at hand may seem ideal, however, I should not dwell on the past. Instead, I should try to move on and open my mind to the greater things that have yet to come. Although I aim to move on and make better and more trilling memories, I hope to keep in contact with my current friends. At hand, this seems like an impossible task, given that I have unsuccessfully kept in contact with friends from both my kindergarden and primary school. 

Here's to another empty promise that I meant to make: Japan post will be up soon.

Also, should I start recording myself singing covers? oh who am I talking to, I don't even have a audience that reads my blog on a regular basis ...

XOXO

Shan

'Castle'

[originally on the 27] *but I was being a bum* ~whispers

payed Debbie's 'castle' a visit a day before prom for some girl time. LITERALLY. I honestly think it is the girliest thing that every girl could possibly do. Surprisingly enough, it went down with much success

The day started with me taking a train to Bishan and then to Yo Chu Kang before catching bus 70 to Greenwich. The mission to Narnia is indeed long. 

Deb demanded this photo. Apparently a statue dressed in clothes is attractive to one, Deb.

We bumped into Miss Rosie Low and laughed our way to the toilet. This is my attempt at being a paparazzi.
She was our former art teacher who speaks in a peculiar accent. AKA CURVES=CEEUUVERUSSS

COME ON GIRLSSS DO U BELEIVE IN LOVE, COS I GOT SOMETHING TO TELL U AND IT GOES SOMETHING LIKE THISSS - Madonna.
This has absolutely no link, I just felt the need to...

when you need help, turn to the internet cause they offer the BEST advice, EVER. PERIOD.  

Deb got distracted by imovie in which we made a strange video with Santa in the background. Flattering.

EYELINERRRR

MAC BOOK AIR PARTY. WATCHING PRIDE AND PREJUDICE AS WELL AS YOUTUBE. WE ARE THE
MASTERS OF MULTI TASKING INDEED.

TEA! There seems to be an endless amount of food being served at Deb's house, I was fed well. 

BLUGHHHHHHH BSHHHHHH TRALALALA - Deb
all right, maybe she didn't say that but I imagine that's what she probably did. I can't remember.  Dayum, this is what happens when I blog a few days later, details slip.

GOING TO JAPANNN IN 3 DAYSSS. SO EXCITED. Planned the trip with my cousin.
WAIT FOR ME SNOW!!

OTHER THINGS THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK
1. Prom
2.Cousin heart to heart
3.photo shooting for a conference

These posts will come, maybe. Also I need to be discipline with my 77.... this is the reason why I like humanities, there is no need for discipline to ace the subject,

XOXO Shan 

Falling in

Today, for the first time in almost a year, sundays are no longer made for the dreaded loner tuition. SO I CELEBRATE!!!!!!!

Went out with BSG today after... a year? Basically after a long long time. It's wonderful how I am still able to spend time with my childhood friends and be all silly. We are all very different right now, but the strong foundation of our friendships have been build. This I believe is what's still keeping us together, and God of course. But to think that if I had met them today for the first time, I would not be the best of friends with them because we would be worlds apart. Enough of my over thought thoughts.
I am just thankful for the good and sincere laughter that I had today, it's been months since I could do that, to feel so carefree.

+++ A fragment of today goes as such: we wanted to eat lunch at the handburger, a restaurant, so we sat down in the restaurant only to realise that the burgers cost almost 20 bucks so we wanted to leave the restaurant, however the waitress served water. Beatrice whispered "DON'T TOUCH THE WATER... NOW... JUST WALK OUT!! NOW!! GOGO GO!" And we scurried out embarrassed... We ended up eating at yoshinoya, which wasn't all that bad..
:)

On the train towards playnation

engrossed while playing mario cart


DRUMMMM ROLLLLLLL

POTRAITSSS

           

Beatrice

Ellis

Janice

Lydia

                   (we wanted to go to gardens by the bay but it poured... none the less this was fun)
No pictures of me, I was the cameraman or.... cameralady... why does the English language highlight men more...


                                                                       xoxo Shan

Confined

Today I woke up from my dream crying because someone(I can't Remeber) was praying about their recent lost and which reminded me of the critical condition my grandmother was in, I'm afraid to loose her. I woke up crying, and my heart feels like someone stamped all over it and placed it back into my body. The peculiar sour feeling in my nose too. Unpleasant, but I guess this is life isn't it, fragile and unpredictable. It also hurts to see that someone I love is in such great suffering and yet I can't do anything about it except cherish the time that I have left with her.

I guess i's just one of those days where it has a bad start.

xoxo
Shan

Hidden

[20 photos]
Today Bianca and Caitlyn came over. we lazed around(a lot) and took some photos. Turns out, Caitlyn is quite the model... some secret talent eh. Also B and I had to take a self portrait which brought back the model or photographer topic again plus the tripod topic... This is a mystery that will never be solved....

Bianca's red skirt

Caitlyn clearly fascinated

My attempt to capture Caitlyn's eye, however,  my focus was off..

A flower on Caitlyn's ear, this is fascinating 

I told her to look like she desired the flowers.... HAHAH clearly I needed to be more specific

FLYYYY TRLALAlaLLALA 

B is such a model... why why whyyyy

DREAM CATCHER. Bought it from Bangkok

This is probably the first and the last time I'll be going out with Caitlyn:( My great table partner is going to the USA to peruse her passion for art. She is a fantastic artist, a diamond in a raft.  

Also I need to blog about Bangkok, but I'll leave that for some other time. Maybe I should type out the draft today. 

I don't have plans tomorrow, and I feel horrible about that. It is strange how before O levels there were endless things to do and I felt like the world was going to come crashing down any moment. Now I feel like a free bird that has taken flight, flying toward nowhere. It kills me inside. 

Prom is next week, I found my dress. The whole time I was shopping for my dress the phrase "SAY YES TO THE DRESS" kept playing in my head... no wonder they can make a whole reality show about saying yes to the dress, except wedding dresses. Finding the perfect dress is a pain cause I'm really fussy and nothing seems to go... 

Been listening to Violet Hill covered by Brooke Fraser for weeks.. so good. 

xoxo Shan